Lost Column

For Richard de Zoysa

Bite marks on the wall,

boot stains on the rug,

your crumpled red tee shirt

chokes on the wrecked bed.

They sniffed around in your room

for hours,

clawed through the shadows,

lifted prints off your thoughts,

left with your satchel,

spilling words along the way.

No scrapbook of your columns,

no tin box of your poems,

no pirith chant,

no séance.

In the belly of the jungle,

on a pyre of tires,

they erased you

word by word

Eventually,

You no longer notice the tarred-out road signs

you get to where you got to go.

The sea lulls you

to see only what you need to see.

You stop gathering the garlands

those placards and slogans

now pulped and paper machéd.

Your three-brick stove

wouldn’t know what you ate,

petrified kindling carries no taste.

You forget the Morse code,

the alphabet soup of UN, NGO, IDP.

Refrains fade and the jeeps go home.

You stop

counting the dead.

You don’t hear the waves

crash at your feet,

or feel the sand under your sole.

You don’t wait for the unarrived bus

you walk and you walk,

you ignore the burden on your back.